I almost forgot about this place…
But after having some seriously odd dreams the other night that i just had to write down, i remembered!
Dream One was something about me being a CSI Superhero investigator trying to catch someone. This “someone” hid in bathrooms and right before they chose their victims by lying bacon on the toilet seat before you sat down. Dont ask because i dont know. The only other thing i remember is that this was in Hawaii and i was staying with this guy named Jack, who i acctually work with on his house on the beach. In my dream he wore a bandanna, was a surfer, and had long scraggly mulet type hair. I dont really know where my brain came up with this one. lol
Dream Two was about a massive party i was at…my two cats were there and i was desperatly trying to keep track of them in this huge party with everyone ive ever known in my life. In the dream it was at my Aunts house but she wasnt there. Everyone was drinking and doing drugs and i was just trying to keep track of my cats who were running all over the place. Near the end my one cat Romeo was outside and i had to lure him inside so he didnt run away…
Weird dreams…weird weird weird…
I wouldn’t have compromised so much
so much of myself for fear of
having you hating me
I would’ve sung so loudly
it would’ve cracked myself!
I became self-conscious
of anything exuberant
I wouldn’t have sold myself short
I wouldn’t have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if I had’ve known my invisibility
would not make a difference
I would’ve run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
I wouldn’t have said it was in fact luck
i’m talking idealism here
I would not have been so self deprecating
I wouldn’t have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
I wouldn’t have cut my comfort off
I wouldn’t have feigned needlessness
I would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval I wanted
asleep and dreaming...
I woke up a little ago with every intention of getting up, going to the bank, going tanning…and thus far none of that has happened. Ive sat here on my laptop drinking a cup of hazelnut coffee, trying to motivate myself enough to at least get my lazy ass off of the couch and straighten up the house which has been a disaster for the past two days… I really should considering my fiancee has been at work since 6am, meaning she had to leave the house at 5, meaning she had to wake up around 4…and i dont have to be at work until 3pm…i dont want her to have to come home and start cleaning however i cant seem to make myself move.
Maybe its because im thinking too much…maybe its because i havent been able to motivate myself in about 2 months…maybe its because im crazy….maybe its because i drink too much…maybe its because im lazy…and then again maybe its because i know im off tomorrow and i know i can just do it then.
Maybe i need a vacation.
I love living in Lawrencville but latley i feel like all my condo is good for is sucking the life out me…and the moisture out of me (i think from having the heat on its making me extra dry). I was sooo excited to move out…i was going to clean and vaccume daily, start running again, decorate my house and do fun little household projects bought from Michaels, start cooking…
So far i have yet to really jump on that bandwagon and ive been here for about 6 months. I think i held my expectations too high. I mean realistically, for me, going ahead and doing all of those things would be a major life change. When i lived at my parents house i guess i was a little more motivated because A. In the winter my parents kept the house at a frigid 55 degrees…i would wake up with little icicles in my nose and mouth…and…B. I would do anything to not be in the house with my annoying parents which resulted in me going out and partying my ass off everynight. Which, now that im not doing all that made me gain weight, because im not out dancing off all the food i ate during the day at night and made me lazier, because now i can sit in my warm condo all day and night with my two cats and not be bothered.
But i want to change my life. I want to change my bad habits. I want to get motiavted to run everyday or at least walk and go tanning all the time like i used to and feel good about myself and do things that will make me feel good…but i CANT. Im stuck in this funk. Its very annoying. So until i can rip myself out of it, im stuck here, lazy and bloated on my couch, usually with a bottle of wine…
Hmmm…..trying to decide which recipe to make for my fiancee tom. Im trying to surprise her since i NEVER cook. Im the worst cook ever so i have to pick something easy… On the other hand shes an amazing cook…maybe i should just make her cook me dinner instead hahaha
- 1 (16 ounce) package lasagna noodles
- 2 tablespoons butter
- 2/3 cup chopped red bell pepper
- 2/3 cup chopped fresh mushrooms
- 1/2 cup chopped onion
- 2 cups small curd cottage cheese
- 2 (10 ounce) packages frozen chopped spinach
- 2 eggs, lightly beaten
- 6 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese, divided
- 1 teaspoon black pepper
- 2 (15 ounce) cans tomato sauce
- 2 teaspoons dried marjoram
- 1 teaspoon white sugar
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 2/3 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
- Bring a large pot of water to a boil. Add lasagna pasta and cook for 8 to 10 minutes or until al dente; drain and pat dry.
- In a large skillet saute in butter the red bell pepper, mushrooms and onion until tender. In a bowl combine the sauteed vegetable mixture, cottage cheese, spinach, eggs, 4 tablespoons of the Parmesan cheese and pepper; mix well.
- In a large skillet, heat tomato sauce, marjoram, sugar and garlic powder for 5 minutes.
- Spread 1/3 cup filling on each noodle. Roll up and place in greased 9×13 baking dish. Pour tomato sauce mixture over lasagna rolls. Sprinkle with mozzarella cheese and remaining Parmesan cheese. Cover and bake in a preheated oven for 40 minutes.
10 3/4 oz condensed cream of chicken soup
4 oz cream cheese, softened
15 oz ricotta cheese
16 oz frozen broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower
10 oz frozen peas
6 Lasagna noodles
1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese, divided
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Coat 9×13 baking dish with nonstick cooking spray.
In a large bowl, combine soup, cream cheese, and ricotta cheese: add veggies and mix well. The mixture may be very stiff. Spread a third of the mixture on the bottom of the baking dish. Press 3 noodles over the veggie mixture. Spread a third more of the mixture over the noodles. Sprinkle with 1/2 cup of mozzerella. Press the remaining 3 noodles on top and cover with remaining mixture.
Cover tightly with aluminum foil and bake for 1 hr and 20 min. Remove foil and sprinkle with remaining cheese. Return to oven and bake until cheese has melted then serve.